The Feather and the Axe

Q: What would you want me to pay attention to?

A: You can always be the one to love when it is easy. Love when it is hard too.  it doesn’t look like running being jumping trying pressing pushing. It is more of a leaning into, accepting, embracing.  Just ease into the pain, the difficulty, the challenge.  You will grow to meet it.  You can trust that you are hearing words from us of truth and helpful not deceit or flattery or justifcication. But love, acceptance, joy. Just receive the power being given you in the form of words in the proper place of authority and judgement. Reach out. embrace. Forgiveness doesn’t look like believing anything said to you but wishing for life in the realm of breath believe and faith honesty. Just find your way in the middle of the path between justification of anger and finding fault with others and berating yourself. Love yourself. Love. believe. Try to push the thought of justification and judgement out of your mind to find room for the beliefs of honor, forgiveness and love. Always love foremost. Intercept the wish to do evil and bend deflect to do your bidding, to do your justice. Things have been hard but you are growing because of them now.  Don’t be angry.  Stay open. Stay receptive. Stay love. Anger is the enemy of righteousness in that it is only a bandage for a wound that grows malignant and old and sour and gross and deadly with time and ignoring, ignorance.  This brings your attention to it.  Address it, the anger, and lean into the acceptance of things as they are, not that they were okay in one sense but that they had to happen to get you where you are now or where you want to be.  It can’t be easy and still get you the same responses, same end product, Follow your heart’s truth and remember to always be the one who holds out the hand to the other with open palm, facing upward, no weapon other than inner strength and alertness, smartness. Rejoice in your condition for you are climbing higher and higher to the heights and depths of the experience possible, the knowledge awaiting, the excellence afforded to those who seek, who are never satisfied with what was or promise of what will be later, always later, but now you can be now, you can be everything you want now, the peace, the truth, the oneness.  Although some things will wait, must wait, there are things that are now, now you are breathing. Now you must reach into the depths and rest, a paradigm , a comparison of two different things, of ways of being, to make it what you can always do when you are the one who tries to flex what you can make for the greater good to know my  way for then you can just end up being wise for the good of all. Flex is not constant, it denotes a transient nature, that one does not have to hold. Just flex. You will relax, will you fail, you will seem weak, but it is just not flexed. Holding muscle is not sustainable.  You are flexing your muscles, being what you can when you can and resting when you cannot.  This is the way of things.  It is the natural way of things.  Don’t expect yourself to be strong all the time.  Relax in the waves, the up and down of it all, knowing you are anchored strongly in the deep ocean. Relax, and be ready to flex, for there will be a time when you are asked to flex. You must be ready.  You will be, for it is already decided.  You will be ready. Flex, relax, flex, relax. You are young and do not have the strength of the elders, the fighters, the men of war. You are not expected to join the front battles of the fray, for you are too young for it to be good, to feel right to anyone who sees you on the battlefield.  Strengthen, rest, flex, retreat and advance. There is much ground to cover and to lose. But never is it done in one day. In one flex, in one battle, in one interaction.  If you lose it in one moment, in one day, in one fit of anger, one interaction, one bad day, it was not what you thought it was. It wasn’t the whole of it. Believe in what you can accomplish when you believe and rest, even when the war cry is loud and the battle on the battlefield is loud and you feel a rush to join.  Your time will come, but it is not now.  Rest, flex, learn and nurse your fledgling wounds. Better to hurt a little now than to rush into battle when not ready and risk it all, and die. Flee is the best thing when you are pushed into corner, when reacting and pushing back would be harmful and not helpful, drawing blood. Better to do no harm than prove one’s pride and risk the future of tribe. Remember to love who you are and what you are becoming and who you were. You are April, our warrior. Rest now before fight finds you. You will know when to pick up your sword and when to make battle with your tongue instead and when to hold your tongue.  When touch of feather does more than the downward swing of a sword or battleaxe.