Misophonia
October 14, 2020
Q: How can I cure my misophonia?
A: Firstly, don’t call it “my.” Con’t claim ownership. It is a condition, not a permanent disability. A condition that can be unconditioned, that can change. Listen to birds and other high-pitched nature sounds for those frequencies will balance out the conditioning that created the misophonia into being. The higher, un-constant, unpredictable noises will re-calibrate your hearing and perception of hearing/discomfort. Love the generosity offered by natural phenomenon to cure, nay, heal the wounds that this conditioning tries to protect you from.
Q: What prompted the misophonia?
A: You know. It’s the feeling of being trapped and forced to listen. Forced by society, parents, good manners, etc. You weren’t able to walk away from the sounds so you began to equate certain sounds with collapsing, a binding. These triggers developed to help you identify situations in which you didn’t want to be and the triggers heightened in sensitivity over time and no longer served you, only made you miserable everywhere you went until you could no longer sleep.
Q: Should I purchase the expensive noise cancellation headphones?
A: Without the prompting of sound to calibrate your hearing, the synapses will collapse, but these headphones don’t operate like that. You could buy them to use periodically. The expense is not justified when you aren’t able to tolerate yourself. If you can see it as something without—something you deal with but not a part of your essence—then okay, but if you can’t, the apparatus will only make you feel more defective like a wheelchair or some other handicap-accessibility feature. Try to give yourself slack and love your body. Love your hearing. Feel the discordance of what strikes you and put it where it belongs—not in your stomach where it makes you sick but out/discharged by your hands to be transmuted by air and earth and your loving allies. It is not you, it is not part of you, the dissonance you feel as sickness—release it—it’s not yours. Love your body. Love yourself. Love your hearing.